Month: April 2015

F is for Friends

I guess I  have always been a less is more type when it comes to Friends. But right now I feel I could use a few closer ones.  My childhood friends have moved away and since we moved away then back I’ve lost touch with some of my closest friends or don’t get to see them much.  Sometimes I think I’m a friendly person but slighty shy until I get to know someone better.  I worry I come off as stuck up when I am really nervous about saying the wrong thing.  My kids keep me busy too so it’s hard to develop friendships when you don’t have the time to put into them.  Sometimes I wish I had the close girlfriend I could tell anything too like back in high school; someone I could call or text when things get scary or I get sad and need a little pick me up. I do have many acquaintances but it’s not the same.

E is for Everything

Everything seems like a cop-out.  I think I’m going to have trouble with some of these letters.  Since Easter was yesterday that could also work.  Even though Easter was later in April last year, my daughter was diagnosed the day after so it’s still a reminder that it’s been almost a year. At first it’s easy to assume that she just ate too much candy or something. I have to admit to being a diabetes dummy. It’s was so difficult to comprehend that is was not just a diet problem but a pancreas problem and that there is no easy fix, but ongoing daily battle with insulin essential to survival.  And even though we’ve being doing this for just under a year, it’s still hard to comprehend how EVERYTHING is effected by it and how it changes EVERYTHING in her young life.

D is for Dancing

 

When my kids were little I could play some music and get them to have a dance party with me. Now that they are teenagers not so much. I have always loved to dance but really don’t like to do it alone. Now that I’m older I don’t go out to bars and dance anymore either. Every once in a while I get to dance with friends but it’s not  enough. Sometimes I just need to dance it out.

C is for Continuous

Continuous

My daughter was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes almost one year ago. The word continuous is a good way to describe things. Type 1 diabetes never takes a break, it is something that you really have to deal with in every aspect of your life. What you eat, if you exercise/play sports, when you sleep. Many finger sticks, shots, inserts — daily, weekly, and on and on and on….

One advantage we have been using is the CGM which stand for Continuous Glucose Monitor. This is a device that is attached to my daughter that checks her sugar levels every 5 minutes. It’s a miracle in some ways however it’s not always accurate and when it’s off it’s a nightmare (it almost always happens at night). I am grateful for the technology though and think it really is a live saver, however I am continuously praying for a cure.

B is for Biscuits and Gravy….

Biscuits and Gravy!

Someone bought them into work today and it was just wonderful.  I think Biscuits and Gravy can fix just about anything. Definitely feeling better today.  Nothing has changed but our attitudes. I knew we just needed a day.

I almost used ‘Broken’ – My daughter has physical therapy tonight…on her pinkie, so much trouble over one little finger.  It’s almost funny that something so small can cause such a big problem. I have never broken any bones so it’s hard to know what it really feels like, her finger is purple though.

A is for Aggravated


This is not how I planned to start this challenge but so fitting for today.

My daughter has been through so much this past year and has been looking forward to softball season for months. Things were going great then she hurt her finger at practice on Friday. On Saturday we had it X-rayed and a small bone was chipped. Yesterday we found out it’s going to take six weeks and physical therapy so no softball – ugh. Why can’t she catch a break? I know life’s not fair. I know it could be worse but for now I am indulging in my own pity party and letting her have a day too.

Then we’ll both move on and find a way to accept this.