This week I’ll be participating in D Blog week.
What Brings Me Down: May is Mental Health Month so now seems like a great time to explore the emotional side of living with, or caring for someone with, diabetes. What things can make dealing with diabetes an emotional issue for you and / or your loved one, and how do you cope?
Since we are only 3 weeks in, there isn’t a lot I can add to the mix except to say that I am just sad a lot of the time if i really stop and think about it. I am mostly a positive person and try to take things one day/step at a time. I try to rely on my faith in Jesus also to know he will be with us and bring us through. However, I can be an extreme worrier too. I can easily let my innermost thoughts go to the most extreme and worst possible scenario. I rarely share these thoughts with anyone so no one really associates that with me, so that’s good I guess.
One thing with this new diagnosis is that you have to think of the day-to-day stuff but we haven’t talked much about the long-term, potential issues. I have read a few things but it’s really hard to know how much we should worry about them right now since we are just starting to get the hang of things. My daughter has never been below 100, so we have no idea yet what the lows are like. That really scares me because right now I feel so scared of that unknown.
The other thing that gets to my daughter is that they are constantly changing her dosage to lower her levels a little at a time. Every time they increase her dosage she gets upset. I keep telling her it’s nothing she’s doing wrong. Yesterday was our first follow-up with the doctor and he told her the same thing and explained more why the changes are occurring. I think that helped her to hear it from him too.
I do think she is a strong, brave girl but I am worried that she will be prone to anxiety and depression. She was starting to be depressed before diagnosis. I think right now the knowing helps. However she likes to be in control and I don’t think that she will like the fluctuations that come with Type 1.
Right now, I am just telling her that I am in it with her and supporting her. We just have to keep doing the best we can and keep praying.